Something I struggle with is my body image.
I have gone through periods of time where I starved myself. I blamed my imperfect body as one of the reasons no one loved me. I thought losing weight would make me more attractive. Thankfully, those days are over. But it’s still sometimes hard for me to get myself to eat. I still check my weight everyday, sometimes multiple times throughout the day…but I’m reminding myself that it’s not necessary and it does nothing but cause harm.
I’m not saying any of this for attention or pity, but to say that we all have parts of ourselves that we don’t like. We have insecurities and confidence issues. But we look around and sometimes have no idea what someone else is struggling with. When people ask me how I lost weight, they probably expect a normal answer, like “dieting” or “exercise.” They have no idea that I did it by eating just a few bites of food everyday and nothing else. No one knew I was going through that or that I was depressed. And you may be experiencing your own trials that you think no one else knows about. I felt completely alone…like no one could possibly understand and no one could possibly care.
But I want you to know that God knows. He sees your hurt. He sees your issues that you think are too great for anyone to deal with. He sees you crying yourself to sleep at night. He sees your darkest secrets and your deepest fears. He sees every scar that you try to hide and all the pain that you cover up with a smile. Jesus loves you. He created you the way you are supposed to look and He accepts you the way that you are.
One song that has gotten me through a lot of emotions is “God Only Knows” by For King & Country:
“God only knows what you’ve been through,
God only knows what they say about you, God only knows the real you, but there’s a kind of love that God only knows”
I just think as Christian people we should be real with each other. We should open up about our struggles. It’s easy to think we’re all alone. But we’re not. God sees us, and it sometimes helps to know that a brother or sister sees us, too. God knows what you’ve been through…and maybe I do too. Let me know if I can pray for you💛